I was overwhelmed when the ultrasound tech said, "There IT is, you are definitely having a boy!" I thought what the heck? What am I going to do with a boy? I don't know how to raise a boy. I don't know anything about boys except they are overly hyper and very dirty. Two things I don't know if I can deal with. It was all very overwhelming for me. I loved my baby very much and knew this was a new journey. I would just learn as I went. I began to do "research" about what to expect with a boy. I bought boy clothes and boy toys. I began to get very excited about being a mom to a boy! Then my baby arrived and it was an immediate bond. He was the most perfect baby. My motherly instincts just kicked in. Mind you I had maybe changed 2 diapers in my whole life. They can not warn you enough about what those first diapers will be like!
Taking him home and knowing he was mine(and my husbands of course) was so exciting. I was a mom!! The reality of knowing he may be overly hyper and probably would get very dirty did not bother me one bit.
I also became overwhelmed with the responsibility of raising a boy in today's society. The man he would need to represent as a Christian. I want him to be prepared for what the world is like, but know he is meant for more than what the world will give him. A couple of weeks ago I began to read a fantastic book that I'm sure I will reference back to for the rest of his life. The book is Your Boy: Raising a Godly Son in an UnGodly World. It is written by Vicki Courtney. Here is the paragraph that I love and also overwhelms me:
As a mother we have a brief eighteen years to make a godly impact on our sons. Eighteen years to teach them about the God we serve. Eighteen years to impress God's commandments upon their hearts. Eighteen years to train them to be real men living in a real world. Eighteen years to influence them in a way their fathers cannot. Eighteen years to be the number one gal in their lives. And eighteen years to ready ourselves for that day when we must release them to a waiting world. We have been given a task to grow the next generation of godly men. It is a high calling-perhaps the highest calling God can give a woman. And never before have the stakes been so high. Truly "the hand that rocks the cradle is the hand that rules the world."
A very incredible paragraph to a mom with a boy. Knowing what my boy will deal with in this world we live in is very overwhelming. I have to do the best I can to equip him to deal with what the world will throw at him. Its a job I don't take lightly. I pray every night for God to equip ME with what I will need to teach him.
What a wonderful job it is to be a mom. Worth every bit of worrying and sacrificing and stress. Worth every sleepless night, dirty diaper, and spit up. Its worth everything you give up, because the gain is just so much more.
My son is only a year old. I'm not naive. I know the job will get tougher. The stress more overwhelming. But I also know that God looked down at me and said, "Brittany, I love you. I know I have well equipped you to raise this son of mine. I know you can take care of him for this short while. Just remember that he is mine not yours. As much as you love him, I love him so much more."
Thank you God for making me a Mother of a Boy.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
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Hudson is so lucky to have such a wonderful mother. I know you were scared but I saw a change in both you and David the minute that little guy came into the world and it was a beautiful change! Both of you are very godly people and godly parents and I know you have what it takes to raise him in an ungodly world. Not that it won't be tough, but you can do it! Plus, his aunt and uncle love him very much, as do his grandparents, and we'll all be here to back you up. You are so blessed! I also want to commend you for already having the desire to raise him in a godly way while he is still so young. You will do fine!
ReplyDeleteHudson Drake is such an Angel boy!! You are so blessed to have him as well as him to have you (&Dave) God truly has smiled down on your family!!
ReplyDeleteBritt,
I felt the exact same way, when they said I was having a boy, and my mom,God, and you spoke to my heart and let me know how blessed I was to have a healthy being growing inside me that I can make a diffence for in their life. Your blog really has encouraged me!
I love the part that you added about raising a good christian male in today's society. Thanks for sharing the book also.
Luv ya
Your story sounds so much like mine. I was kinda scared when i had my first boy. I was pretty concerned my house may drown in mud by the time I had the second one 4 years later...but they are teens now and we survived. Boys can be so special. Just remember you will always be his number one girl no matter what. God bless you and your sweet boy! I really enjoy your blog!
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